John O'Neil

Have had several episodes of spiraling depression and anxiety this week. Still getting used to being out of work. I need an income, and I’m working on it, but I still have to deal with the new disposition of things. And it’s taking a while. I feel betrayed, and several friendships have been torn asunder. It’s not the end I envisioned, but at least I avoided the retirement party. So there is that. I feel like I’ve wasted 35 years of my life. Perhaps it’s “for the best,” because “everything happens for a reason,” but still I think it’s still too raw, and I am having problems getting over it.