February 2023
5 February 2023 14:38![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
johno_1960Wait, are we here already? And why am I so happy? The trauma is still there, and the thinking problems, and the life I have built. Why do I see it differently all of a sudden? Drugs? Tylenol, zoloft, methotrexate, folic acid, more tylenol, and citirizine!
I'm just done complaining. I mistakenly thought not complaining was saying that everything was great, and having a pollyanna zig ziglar positive outlook. Thats only a snow job. There is a middle path. After Marshall died I stopped telling people what to do. Like I knew what was best for another person. It evolved into a let people be philosophy. I learned how much control I have. None for you, all for me. And was finally ok with it.
I'm just done complaining. I mistakenly thought not complaining was saying that everything was great, and having a pollyanna zig ziglar positive outlook. Thats only a snow job. There is a middle path. After Marshall died I stopped telling people what to do. Like I knew what was best for another person. It evolved into a let people be philosophy. I learned how much control I have. None for you, all for me. And was finally ok with it.
