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johno_1960COUNTER POINT: YES YOU DID.
I'm weird, first of all.
All up in my head. All up in my feels, as some would say.
It's how I've navigated the world.
My family welcomed me into this world as a gift.
Not a savior. Although my siblings said I saved them.
I carried around a whole complex range of feelings.
I felt the whole world.
I was self conscious, self absorbed, self defeating.
The programming for grandeur was installed into the wrong operating system.
The wrong mainframe.
I crave attention.
And reject it.
I don't want to hear it.
I love to hear it.
But I don't believe it.
Thank you for sharing.
You can't be talking about me.
That can't be true.
If you believe the good things, you have to believe the bad.
It's all about me.
I want you to love me.
You have no idea what I see
When I look inside.
I hurt when I think about it
So I try not to think about it.
But I fail.
Why don't you see me
For what I am.
I'm weird, first of all.
All up in my head. All up in my feels, as some would say.
It's how I've navigated the world.
My family welcomed me into this world as a gift.
Not a savior. Although my siblings said I saved them.
I carried around a whole complex range of feelings.
I felt the whole world.
I was self conscious, self absorbed, self defeating.
The programming for grandeur was installed into the wrong operating system.
The wrong mainframe.
I crave attention.
And reject it.
I don't want to hear it.
I love to hear it.
But I don't believe it.
Thank you for sharing.
You can't be talking about me.
That can't be true.
If you believe the good things, you have to believe the bad.
It's all about me.
I want you to love me.
You have no idea what I see
When I look inside.
I hurt when I think about it
So I try not to think about it.
But I fail.
Why don't you see me
For what I am.
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Date: 30 May 2026 23:16 (UTC)Keep it up,
The other John
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Date: 30 May 2026 23:30 (UTC)